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All Things Possible…

“With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”               (Matthew 19:26   NIV) 

How many times have you heard this scripture in a moment of difficulty or desperation?  How many times have you shared this scripture with someone in a moment of needing to encourage them?  How many times have you repeated it to yourself over as a quick line of encouragement when things seem desperate?  I’ve heard and spoken that one verse for years. Thrown it out as a quick fix in the moment.

It’s very true… with God, anything is possible.  Does it mean that if we pray and are diligent in our daily lives that God will make everything happen?  I’ve tended to lean on this verse with that idea in mind.  When things have not gone my way, then I move into my rationalization mode of “why.”  He must have something better.

Over the years, I’ve questioned the “all things” part of that verse.  When my first marriage was not restored, I questioned and then rationalized.  Low and behold, He did have something better!  Whew!  Okay, I’m still convinced “that with God, all things are possible.”

I’ve been convinced in all areas of my life except for one.  For many many years (okay, all of my life!) I’ve struggled with my weight.  I came out of the womb a 6x!  So, when most little first grade girls were wearing 6x, I’d already graduated to the next size!  Well, maybe there is a slight exaggeration here, but you get the picture!  Never have I been thin and what I would consider “normal.”  What is “normal” you ask?  Well, that is another blog for another day!  Anyway, my weight has been an ongoing struggle for most of my life.

I’m able to trust God with everything in my life.  I’ve been through some very difficult times, and with the hand of God on them, I’ve come out okay!  Stronger! Stronger in every difficult time except for my weight issues.  Here is an area, that over the years, I have almost felt as if God has taken His hand off of me.  “You are on your own for this one kid… good luck!”  Now, I know that is not the case, but it has felt like it.  If, in fact, ALL things are possible with God, then shouldn’t I be a size 6, weighing 130 pounds?  I’ve certainly invested years and years of blood, sweat, tears, money, time and countless hours on my face begging God to change me.

The past year and half have afforded me the opportunity to begin making some healthy changes in my life.  It has been a slow and steady process, some days slower than others!  As I continue to work on my health, the weight issue is beginning to become clearer to me.  I’m taking some steps that, with hard work and “suffering,” I’m beginning to see some change that might actually last a lifetime!

On my current journey, I was reading a daily devotional I downloaded.  Today’s verse was Matthew 19:26.  I have the version set to The Message in my online Bible so this verse came up today in a way I’d not read it before.

“No chance at all if you think you can pull it off yourself.  Every chance in the world if you trust God to do it.”  (Matthew 19:26  MSG)

Those words in Matthew stopped me in my tracks.  How much of this journey have I tried doing on my own?  I rely on God to get me started and then when things seem to be going well, I let Him have some time off and I take over.  This only leads to failure and greater frustration.

I’m on Day 9 of a pretty intense 21 Days of cleansing and purification.  This is my second time around.  The first time I made it to Day 5, hit a wall and never looked back.  My second attempt has been better and I’ve included God on the journey.  I’ve had a day or two where I felt good and then realized that I had begun to draw up God’s release papers, but then realized that I truly can’t pull this off myself.  I need to trust that He knows what He’s doing and roll with every part of this journey…the good, bad and the ugly.  My reliance MUST be on Him and not myself.  Do I really trust God with this venture?  It’s never happened before…. so why now?

Every day I lift up loved ones to the heavens, completely trusting God in their lives.  How it is that I can trust Him with others lives and not completely my own?

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IMG_0065 IMG_0025 No matter our journey… whether it be through storms, times of new growth, content/happy times… it’s a journey that He does not want us to take alone.  We can’t pull it off on our own, but have every chance in the world when we trust God to do it!

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The Road Less Traveled…

403 days from today I will be turning 50… The Big 5-0… the half century mark…half way to one hundred… two quarters… (in my younger days) OLD!  Stop with the comments; I can hear you all now! “You are not old.”  “You are as old as you let yourself be.”  “Old is a state of mind.”  I’m sure I’ve missed some!  I always say, “I’m as old as I’ve ever been!”  That stops people in their tracks for a few seconds, anyway!  My heart today is not that I’m getting old.  It just happens that a major landmark birthday is only 403 days away and I’ve got some work to do!

My husband turns 50 six weeks before I do. We’ve spent a great many hours talking about our health and our future.  We’d really like to live a long life to see our grandchildren and possibly great grandchildren.  Our lifestyle has been fast, furious, and full of unhealthy food.  When the kids are here, I work hard to put “healthy” meals on the table.  When it’s just the two of us, it’s very easy to just grab something on the way home because I’m tired.  Not only is that unhealthy, but expensive.  This past year we have added the stress of money to our list.  At this point in the game, we take nothing for granted in terms of our finances or health.  It’s sad when major struggles are what get you to that place.

We recently came across a Montel Williams advertisement about his Living Well program.  We were intrigued by the changes that Montel has made in his life due to his MS.  We have always talked about getting a juicer but never done it.  That would mean actually using it!  Well, we took the plunge and bought the Health Master Elite!

Montel’s Health Master Elite!

Yep… it’s a glorified blender, but it’s features drew us in and we made the purchase!  I’ve named it Montel and he’s joined us in our journey two days now!  Both days this weekend we’ve had a drink in the morning that consisted of pure fruits and vegetables with some plain greek yogurt added in.  Today I added in some blackstrap molasses and a bit of agave.  It looks horrible and tastes…. well, it all depends on what you put in!  Today was apple, pear, orange, strawberry, carrot, and spinach.  The spinach and blackstrap change the color drastically.  I almost have to close my eyes when I drink!

Before the blackstrap molasses!

The finished product!

We’ve come to the grim realization in our lives that if we don’t make some serious changes to our health, it won’t matter what jobs we hold or how much money we have.  Our lives will be more difficult and most likely shorter-lived.  We’ve committed to make some changes… one baby step at a time.  I need to lose weight and my husband needs to gain.  We both need to get fit and healthy with more energy and zest for life!

For many people today, healthy living is the road less traveled.  As I age, I want to be on that road!  I need to be on that road!  It’s not an easy road to travel.  It takes time, energy, commitment, and perseverance.  I can no longer live by my unspoken motto…. Never do today what I can put off until tomorrow! With realistically half my life already under my belt, I need to change my direction and live well.  I’m grateful for the people in my life that are helping me on that journey!  I am fearfully and wonderfully made and need to step up to the plate to take care of this body and life I’ve been given!  Here’s to living well and moving more!