Friday… I love the sound of that word… Friday! I’m grateful for Friday… it means that I get a break from the madness to spend a few days at home to refuel before the next week of madness begins. Don’t get me wrong, I love the madness! I thrive on the madness! The madness is what gets me out of bed in the morning! But that break from the madness… that is truly something to be grateful for.
A few other things I’m grateful for this very cold (zero degrees!) morning…
- my hot coffee to warm me as my very old, cold house begins to warm up
- the madness (or more fondly referred to as my job)… without that, I would not be sipping said hot coffee in my very old, cold house
- my new Birthday Club friends… we gathered for the first time last night and laughed and laughed and laughed… so good for the soul
- the kids coming this weekend… as they grow and change, our relationships are growing and changing… getting better and better
- February only having 28 days… and today is number 25… if my math is correct… that only leaves 3 more… hmmm, wonder what March will bring?
One last thing I am grateful for is my commitment to stay off FB for 28 long gut-wrenching days! Last night I almost fell off the wagon! The girls at Birthday Club opened it up to show a picture of our mutual friend, Gnomey Blistwick. As I looked across the table, I saw the open FB page. I quickly turned away! For a split second I felt as if I’d ruined everything that I had worked for! It felt as if I’d sipped that beer… or taken a bite of that cookie. I know that probably sounds crazy, but when you are addicted to something it is very difficult (and feels nearly impossible) to stay away from it. It is at that point in an addicted person’s journey that we feel like we have failed and might as well just throw in the towel and go back to the way it was. If you’ve struggled with any kind of addiction then you are probably nodding your head in agreement. If you have never struggled with addiction, well then…. you are extremely lucky. That silly little incident last night strengthened my resolve even more to finish out what I have committed to. And, if any of you FB friends are wondering if I’ve gone onto FB just to look…. NO, I have not! Have I thought about it… YES! Have I done it? NO! I did have to log in from my phone, via Scrabble, to finish a game with a friend, but quickly logged off when the Scrabble game was over! That doesn’t count, does it?
As I read over what I’ve written thus far, I am realizing that each time I write, I discover or reveal another little piece of who I really am. I am also feeling more comfortable putting my heart out there for the world (or no one!) to see. I think it’s time to consider blogging about the one issue that paralyzes my life, and has since I was young girl… food. FB aside, food is that huge addition in my life. Maybe opening up about my addiction for all the world to see will help me (and possibly others) in my journey… bring it to the forefront… force me to quit hiding behind it. Ah, yes… maybe these 28 days truly have had more purpose in my journey than I even realize… and for that on this very cold Friday morning… I am grateful!